I dreamt a silly dream yesterday..

hahaha. really silly.

i dreamt..
my bro and gf getting rom today.

i took a cab to his place while waiting for my bro's turn to get rom.
at his place.. i saw his bro and sis in law.. thou dat place was a lil weird. it doesnt seems like his place. but it's his place.

den.. he told me they are shifting place.
haha. it's funny. and it's time i go back to e rom place.

we held hands when he sent me to take a cab.. and everything seems fine.. thou it was after yestd..

in actual fact..
e last two person i saw from e KOh's family other den himself, was his bro and sis in law. and when i left his place dat nite.. i took a cab too..

it's e first time im experiencing such an unlogical dream. or issit telling me something? hahaha.
she said.. perhaps e day my bro get rom will be e day everything seems fine..
but nope.
i know im thinking of him.. way too much.

i told him.. i never put u on my top priority. u're always below my family and my animals..
cos he's already deep in my heart.

my heart tells me.. yes, i do.
my mind tells me.. no, u shldn't.
she told me.. true happiness can only be attain when u follow ur heart. and e mind jus doesnt work rite for e heart..
she told me.. in true love, e mind and e heart shld feel e same..

he thot it was something else.
no. i told him. but if he felt betta dat way, den go ahead.

i didnt regret my decision 3 yrs back..
it had been 3 yrs down e road, and i hope u wont regret ur decision either.

u wanted to hold on..
but u decided to let go..
it's all for me.
u insisted on dat decision.
u're not willing to gimme more time.
it's all for me.

i felt rotten. i felt lousy. im utterly broken. and it hurts badly.