LOVE is...

not about finding the right person, but creating a right relationship. LOVE is not about how much LOVE you have in the beginning but how much LOVE you build till the end.
somehow i find dat two phrase quite true.. and i totally agreed with them..



jus when i thot everything had ended, thou not very smoothly, and i'd finally moved on with my life.. i received dat msg.. and dat phone call, many hrs later.. hrs after e call, i saw him.. and i guessed, dat will be e last.

i know im very selfish. yesh, i am.

i dun wish to tink anymore.. i WAN my current life..

i know im escaping.. i jus WAN it tis way..

thou at e thot of him, and our last meeting, i still feel very sad.. very depressed.. very guilty.. i know i'll be happier tis way..

haizzZzzz.. tis is wat i had chosen. tis is all wat i wan. and not wat i really needs.. so if one day if i really regret my decision, PLS, laugh at me.. scold me.. blame me.. its all my fault.

i know i sounded stupid. why do i wan to let go of someone who loves me as much as i loves him? no one will ever understand wat im going thru for e past three yrs.. i hope he does. only he will know how much i'd done for him. only he will know how much i really loved him.

sorry pig, i disappoint u.. but thanks for respecting my decision. and once again, im sorry for hindering u from doing all ur revisions.. i love u.


jus when i thot my phone will be fine after sending for repair, tiny problems arise, one after another.. my contacts were gone, when supposingly, i thot it was stored in e memory card. and after e last meeting, i woke up with my phone turned off. (cos no batt lah!) upon turing it on, i realised, msges which were all stored in e memory card, were gone as well.. all of them, inclusive of all e different folders i have. msges i thot i will keep till e end..

e cow told me, "tat shows u need to change sth new ardy".. i guessed, dat includes a new bf.. hahaha!! wateva it is, thanks bitch!! for supporting me thruout e crisis.. i love u!!


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my dearest girls.. u know who u are.. i know i appeared oblivious to e fact dat u girls are always ard for me.. im utterly sorry for neglecting u girls.. i know deep down dat no matter wat i do.. u girls will support me too. and i guessed, u girls understand too..

hence, let me say tis here.. "im sorry" and "thanks!!"

friday, we'll be there!! (e place we have been saying we wanna go since.. duno how many donkey yrs back..)

min and hj, here i am to wish u two, Happy 4th Birthday~!~! may love be all ard u two.. =)


p/s: it's getting too long.. it's time to stop. hahaa..