Work is so fine..

In fact it would be great if we dun consider e environment and e meager pay! Haha. My closest colleague, e one who sits beside me and does e same thing as me, is such an excellent companion! Haha. We joked alot and she's really nice and easy to get along with.. Coincidentally, she's also e one whom birdy can get along best with, during his days working in O2. Haha.

She's a married woman with three kids. From wat i see from e outside, she seems to be someone who's really very happy and satisfied with her life.. Haha. Reason being.. She has a loving and doting husband who's so willing to come and pick her up almost every nite after work.. Despite e fact dat he's working at Loyang and they're staying in Tampines. Three cute and adorable kids.. Her own career. Ok, i know working as an Admin staff isn't exactly something a successful woman would consider as her Career.. But to some woman, they're contented enuff to have a happy family.. And jus tell me, which woman doesnt wan dat? Haha.

Personally, i still dun see anything lying ahead of me.. My future is nothing but a piece of blury vision.. Jus like how e clouds block away e sunlight from our sight. But i know dat my biggest priority rite now is MONEY! Yeah sounds superficial. But wat to do when we're all living in such a practical society? Money works wonder yeah? Haha. U cant live without money cos u simply cant do anything without it. Tis is e fact and it's always hard to face up to e reality.

I'd did a simple calculations on my monthly expenses only to find out dat, i seriously needs a job dat can offer me with at least 1.6K! But jus imagine, Weekiong an undergrad, who was once our Panasonic "technical's support", is only getting 1.8K.. Is it possible dat i can get wat i wants? *shrugs*

did consider going into e government sector cos of e benefits and welfare.. But seems like heaven isn't on my side. rite now, they are actually having a big turnover, cutting down on their employment but increasing on their employees workload. Guess it's jus a lil too late for me..

Anyway, back to where i was.. Work. I've got an understanding and funny boss who can joke around with. A boss who laughs when he sees other ppl's ugly look on their nric.. A boss who tells ppl his fax number is 2353535. Haha. And yeah, with excellent companion, one is more den enuff. I dun ask for more cos i'd heard too much of e outside world and im contented. Everything will be good enuff if e pay is higher. Well, at least for now.

Congrats to my dearest frens on passing their Advanced Theory on their first try~! Hyna and Aide~!! hahaha!

Pay Day = Broke Day. jus imagined i spent more den half of wat i got for e month of July.. and today is only 31st JULY!! damn. bills. bills. bills. anyway.. most of e money wasn't spent on myself. hahaha. gave a lil to my parents.. bought my lil lil darling a pair of sandals.. bought a G-shock for my big darling (with staff purchase! haha). it's suppose to be a lil surprise, and it's a gift with my first pay.. hahaha and etc etc.. ok lah. did spend on myself.. but dats all some daily necessities from Watsons lah.. and there gone my 100 bucks! yeah! i spent dat much in Watsons alone! therefore, no shopping for me tis month~! and for e rest of e month, i'll be attending a Survival Course~! wahaha. however, 18 bucks had already been set aside. =)

Sunday was great~! hahaha. being able to slp in his arms and wake up seeing him is even betta~! i prefer to have my off days on sunday.. thou at work will be damn free plus e time we get to spend together is short, at least i dun have to pull myself out of e bed and force myself to go work. but sad to say.. for e whole of August, i only got two off on Saturdays for e first and last wk of e month. haha. anyway, mama leow bought a towel specially for me.. so nice of her~! they're so used to seeing me on sunday mornings.. haha. luckily ahma leow is quite fine with it too.. *phew*

gotta stop here~! updates more some other time~!

FRENSssss

Saw an old fren while walking home on tuesday.. Carolyn. e ex-girlfriend of Sherman, Kenghian and Cheetiong. Haha! She didnt change much except prettier. Really. Still remember there's a period of time we were very closed. Met each other almost everyday after school with some other frenz and played volleyball.. Slack.. Etc. Thou she's two yrs younger den all of us, we clicked very well and i would consider her quite mature for her age back den. Couldn't even remember wat brought us together. Perhaps is fate? Haha. Yeah, prolly. And couldn't remember wat separated us either. End of our fate? Haha. Who knows? Anyway, e first thing she actually said to me was, "how come u seems to have shrunk in size? Or issit i'd grown bigger size?" haha. Indeed, she's still e same.

Frens i dun have alot.. But true frens i have enuff. =) from siting and huipin to jiajun and derick to cheetiong and kenghian to shipin and ailing and simin.. Although we might not know each other totally or understand each other well enuff, they'll still be my frens for life.. Frens whom i'll do anything to remain our frenship.

Wednesday e 26th, was my off day.. Went breakfast with my aunt uncle grandma mum and erge.. It had been a long time.. Now dat im working, there are lesser chance for breakfast like tis le.. And i also missed out alot with my two lil darlings! Therefore most of my off days, i'll be e one to fetch jayen from school if im not going out.. And dat day he did something which i felt so so sweet..!!
He picked up his bag when e teacher told him dat it's time to go home.. When he saw me at e door, he turned around and shouted happily to e teacher, "MY GuGu!" omg! He's so cute lah! It's like he's so proud to have a gugu littat.. Haha! He's really getting smarter and becoming more obedient ever since he attended school. Now he can even SING "Ba Ba Blacksheep!" haha. He's really a darling dat everyone loves. He simply brightens my every day with his, "Bye bye GuGu..", before he goes to school in e morning.

As for zanver, im sad to say dat now he actually cling on more to Brenda den my mum. =(

BACK to work on thursday.. baby came to see me. yeah, SEE me. haha. she came and passed me a lil hand made purple rose. how sweet of her? haha. but dats only if u dunno dat actually she jus shun bian made for me de. her mama got three. but dat three were actually meant for her boyfriend, ah-bi. it's jus dat, dat day she didnt meet him thus, gave it to her mama instead. hai. how heavy color light fren? nvm. anyway, she thot i'll throw dat rose away.. but never did she expect dat im looking at it almost everyday~! hahaha.

see e rose stick to my pc at work? and my "ai-xin" water bottle~!

Actually i've got nth much to say.. jus wanna share with u ppl bout my LiL darlings.. haha.

JAYEN!

ZANVER!

my ah fat who enjoys photo taking jus like me! haha.

dats exactly how he smiles!!

i know tis is freaking ugly!! but. hahah!

tis was taken quite some time back.. haha. saw it accidentally so decided to post it here~! hahaha.

tml is sunday.. finally my off day again~!

Class 3 License

27 July 2005 10.15am - i was seated in e same room, with e same objective, listening to e same officer saying e same thing, doing e same thing and e same feeling existed, thou it was already my fifth try. A mixture of hoping to pass and e fear to fail AGAIN. e room was tensed and all different expressions emerged from all e testee. Worried, anxious, confident, excited, nonchalant etc..

Nervously waiting for my tester to arrive, i studied e route carefully. When my name was finally called, i followed e tester down to where my instructor's car was parked. At e stairs, i saw a familiar face and dats none other den my dearest Aide. =) was so touched she came all e way from Commonwealth to SSDC jus to encourage me.

Frankly speaking, at dat point of time, my level of confidence had already dipped to it's lowest. I'd no hope for passing but on e other hand i really really wished to. Afterall, it was a dream i always had, long before i turned Eighteen! And i was almost Twenty when i finally got my driving license. Haha.

Still remember e first sentence e tester said to me when we were seated in e same briefing room. "Finally, ur hardwork pay off.. U made it!" i was freaking happy den! Listened to all he had to say and i proceeded downstairs to meet up with my dear fren and i started making calls and smses to tonnes of ppl announcing my good news! Hahaha. Was so damn excited and everyone can hear it thru e phone. Haha. Den i went to take photo and to apply for my license etc etc..

e first time, 9 Sept 04, i couldn't fulfil my 19 yr old bdae wish, cos of e S-course. But He fulfilled his promise to me by buying that piece of DoubleHeart necklace for me!

8 Dec 04, hoping to get it before e Cow's bdae, but i disappoint myself again.

21 Mar 05, thot tis time i'll finally be able to drive Him on His bdae, once again i failed to make it.

4 July 05, i dun even dare to tink much and thus wasn't dat disappointed.

27 July 06, finally it's time i can get rid of tis..



Haha! Any taker? Min, work hard and make it on ur first try k! I'll give dat to u! haha. Guess wat? e P-plate was actually given to me by my, den good fren, now boyfriend, on my 19th bdae! Hahaha!

Thou i'd wasted alot of money and time to fulfil my wish, i admired my own perseverance and e never give up attitude. Haha! So if u really wan to do something.. Be it giving up something or getting something, pls hold on to ur
determination and remain positive yeah? =)

p/s: but some thing are not meant to be too persistant..

4th post of e day

haha! tis is e dunno how many entries for today. finally my laptop is back sitting on my table, in my room~! BUT! he'll be leaving me again tml~! remember i told u guys dat my brother will be bringing him on a holiday to Australia? haha. yeah and he jus confirmed with me dat he'd lent his car to his fren le!! ArgH!! still thot i can drive to work once in a while when im lazy to squeeze into e train with so damn many ppl in e morning.. and go for a spin ard on e road by myself someday.. yet, now im left with nth! =/

anyway, tml is Monday.. den comes Tuesday.. and Wednesday~! hahaha. ladies, pls let me know wat u all wanna eat on dat day so i can avoid eating them tis few days! hahaha. im so excited~! but i dunno why.. perhaps i felt so honoured dat all of them are coming down to accompany me for dinner? hahaha. dats numb, i know. =X

e nex thing i know it will be Thursday already.. and finally Friday~! it's my OFF day~! haha. and i jus heard from birdy dat they can prolly book out on dat day!~ den we'll be able to catch The Pirates of The Caribbean le! everyone says is nice u know! yeah so looking forward.. =)

hmmm. . . i hate e journey to work. not bcos of e long distance but whenever im waiting for e train at City Hall, memories will gush in, allowing my mind to wander about. and when i boarded e train towards Pasir Ris, my mind would have gone into a state of contradiction. pining to see something familiar but hoping not to see it.. i felt so nostalgic. prolly it's due to e phone call.. or perhaps it's due to e absence of him? haha. wateva it is, it's such a mental torture. and after suffering from insomnia for a few nites, conclusions were finally made.

if he wasnt there, i wouldnt had received dat phone call. . .
if he was here, i wouldnt had to suffer from all these.
if he wasnt there, my heart would have gone soft long ago. . .
if he was here, i would definitely had felt much betta.

MY birth tree

Your birth tree is Ash Tree, the Ambition

Uncommonly attractive, vivacious, impulsive, demanding, does not care for criticism, ambitious, intelligent, talented, likes to play with its fate, can be egoistic, very reliable and trustworthy, faithful and prudent lover, sometimes brains rule over heart, but takes partnership very serious.

http://www.paulsadowski.com/BirthDay.asp

how true is it? pls gauge by urself. i quite agree with it thou. =)

ANIMALS POEM

We are so animal.. almost everyone is a mixed blood~! let me tell you why! come on and rap with me boys and girls~!!

We have a PANDA who is as skinny as the BIRD leg.

We have a BIRD who is in love and married to the DOG.

We have a DOG who is family with the COCKROACH and BEAR.

We have a PIG fatter than the COW.

We have a COW who is the cousin of the CHICKEN.

We have a CHICKEN who wants to take up bike because of the HYENA.

We have a HYENA who never switch on the phone and sleeps more than the KOALA.

We have a KOALA who is more numb than the PANDA~!

well, tis is a poem created by e animals.. jus thot of sharing it with my readers. =)

Super lazy Sunday afternoon

in e office!! (well, maybe not e office but i dunno wat e hell i shld call dat.. store room? haha.) yeah ppl~! i started working le.. hahaha. finally huh? hmmm.. anyway rite now im sitting inside e office dunno wat to do. i've got tonnes of phone calls to make.. but i dunno wats wrong with ppl nowadays.. they jus dun like to pick up their calls or some dun even switch them on!! den wats e point of subscribing to e service and pay for them every month? argH~! all thanks to them and i've to call them again and again and again~! how retarded rite? haha. alrite, im currently working in O2 cum BenQ-Siemens service center as their so-called Admin Assistant. but guessed is more to Telephone Operator ya? -_-" basically my duty is to assist e Customer Service Executive outside to search for e phones when e ppl come collect their phones.. and do some paper work when they send in their phones for servicing.. and! call up e cust to inform them dat their phone is ready for collection. u'll never believe how cock up their system used to be! and i even have cases where cust sent in their phone as long as 4 months ago?! MARCH! omg~! i wonder wats e point of servicing if i still need to go find, or some even get a new SPARE phone, when i jus bought dat phone which had been brought in for service. hahahaha. ridiculous rite? and jus imagine tis particular phone was launched in March and u spent a few hundred bucks to get it cos it was e latest phone back den. sadly, u got a set which was faulty and had to bring it in for service. DEN! u waited till 4 months later to get back e phone! how sad?! hahaha. dat new phone had already become so damn outdated lor! and worse thing is, by den e price muz had been greatly reduced!! well, all i can say is, Good Luck to u if u're jus one of those LUCKY customer~! =)

if u ppl are wondering why there's a photo of Botak Birdy when he was supposed to be in camp dat day.. dats bcos, he got some problem with his kneecap after some trainings on 10 July and was sent to NUH for a checkup on 11 July. thus, was given two days of "Attend C". dun ask me wats dat, i only know he got two days MC and can stay home for two days. i tried asking my brother, but he too, has got no idea why issit called dat. hahaa. he'll be going back for another checkup on 21 July. lets hope dat tis will not affect his life in army. he seriously dun wish to be downgraded. *pray hard* and den he will be RELEASE on 22 July~! yeah!! he looks like a Jail-Bird, doesnt he? whahahahahahaha.

Really cant wait to see my dear ladies.. hahahaha. min is currently busy with her projects and school work in SIM.. aide, i too, totally got no idea wat u're doing BEHIND all of us! as for my baby, haha.. she is forever busy.. with work, bobo, frens, and busy planning for our upcoming events as well~! haha. baby, i supposed u shld somehow know who is dat "SHE". well, if u dunno den let me tell u, HIS sister. =) got it? hmmm.. so now u know, wat do u have to say? NTH. hahaha. so wats e point of telling u when im not at e very rite condition den? hahaha! u cant do anything either. it's jus a matter of time u'll know it k. and perhaps ask urself, did i hide more things from u or issit e other way round? hahaha.

oh well im going for my lunch now.. ALONE~!! bye~!

another six nites..

hahahahahahahahahahaha~!

A phonecall from his sister

Received a call tis afternoon.. brings me back to something which i'd been avoiding for a period of time already. yes, im a lil worry.. but i really hope u'll stop degrading urself. thou e qns had always been in my mind, and e lil stone at e bottom of my heart.. i dun mind not having an answer to dat qns either. so wat can i do after i get to know e answer? she wans me to tell them e whole story.. but i really cant bring myself to do dat.. but maybe i really shld even thou he wont like it.. let me consider bah.. haizZzZzZ. im such a bitch.

Somehow i really cant forsee where i'll be or wat i'll be doing five yrs down e road. ppl often say, "ur future lies in ur own hand". but when i stretch out my palms, i can only see lines running ard. hahahaha. future? nowhere to be seen. how sad? hmm.. perhaps i shld really set some targets for myself to achieve. and rite now, e first goal for myself is, i SHOULD get my first decent job before my 21st bdae~!! another four months and seventeen days....

thirteen days..

helpless

BOREDOM hits me once again.
life changes.
i dunno where am i heading.
i felt so helpless.
ArgH!!!