A phonecall from his sister

Received a call tis afternoon.. brings me back to something which i'd been avoiding for a period of time already. yes, im a lil worry.. but i really hope u'll stop degrading urself. thou e qns had always been in my mind, and e lil stone at e bottom of my heart.. i dun mind not having an answer to dat qns either. so wat can i do after i get to know e answer? she wans me to tell them e whole story.. but i really cant bring myself to do dat.. but maybe i really shld even thou he wont like it.. let me consider bah.. haizZzZzZ. im such a bitch.

Somehow i really cant forsee where i'll be or wat i'll be doing five yrs down e road. ppl often say, "ur future lies in ur own hand". but when i stretch out my palms, i can only see lines running ard. hahahaha. future? nowhere to be seen. how sad? hmm.. perhaps i shld really set some targets for myself to achieve. and rite now, e first goal for myself is, i SHOULD get my first decent job before my 21st bdae~!! another four months and seventeen days....

thirteen days..