A kind of Disease

peeps, if u guys arent aware, recently there is a kinda disease dat is spreading ard in e Animals Kingdom.. i dunno how true it is.. but, believe me..

breaking up is CONTAGIOUS!!

yesh, really!! it's happening one after another.. hyna.. birdy.. doggie..?? (can i be e lovely butterfly instead of a DOG?? hahaa!) cowie..

thou there are still couples who are happily attached to their partner, i.e. chicken.. cockroach.. bear.., it's scary enuff dat such things are happening almost at e same time..

my baby says, LOVE is fragile.. it might be true lah.. but in fact, in life, there're lotsa things which are only a 'border line difference'.. love & hate; life & death; trust & dun trust; etc.. anyway, i still believe in LOVE.. hahaa!

below is something i stole from a fren's bloggie.. sorry egroeg. haha. it's meant for all u animals who had jus broke up with ur other half!! hahaha!


"When one door of happiness closes, another opens; but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has opened for us."
---Helen Keller ---


chEErs to SinGLeh00d~!~!~!

The first 26th.. And a New Beginning...

well, i saw e date today, i felt sad.. and e kinda sadness comes directly from e bottom of my heart.. it's e first 26th w/o him.. it definitely felt weird.. but there're more to come.. so i jus have to learn to adapt.


today, it shall be a new beginning..

LOVE is...

not about finding the right person, but creating a right relationship. LOVE is not about how much LOVE you have in the beginning but how much LOVE you build till the end.
somehow i find dat two phrase quite true.. and i totally agreed with them..



jus when i thot everything had ended, thou not very smoothly, and i'd finally moved on with my life.. i received dat msg.. and dat phone call, many hrs later.. hrs after e call, i saw him.. and i guessed, dat will be e last.

i know im very selfish. yesh, i am.

i dun wish to tink anymore.. i WAN my current life..

i know im escaping.. i jus WAN it tis way..

thou at e thot of him, and our last meeting, i still feel very sad.. very depressed.. very guilty.. i know i'll be happier tis way..

haizzZzzz.. tis is wat i had chosen. tis is all wat i wan. and not wat i really needs.. so if one day if i really regret my decision, PLS, laugh at me.. scold me.. blame me.. its all my fault.

i know i sounded stupid. why do i wan to let go of someone who loves me as much as i loves him? no one will ever understand wat im going thru for e past three yrs.. i hope he does. only he will know how much i'd done for him. only he will know how much i really loved him.

sorry pig, i disappoint u.. but thanks for respecting my decision. and once again, im sorry for hindering u from doing all ur revisions.. i love u.


jus when i thot my phone will be fine after sending for repair, tiny problems arise, one after another.. my contacts were gone, when supposingly, i thot it was stored in e memory card. and after e last meeting, i woke up with my phone turned off. (cos no batt lah!) upon turing it on, i realised, msges which were all stored in e memory card, were gone as well.. all of them, inclusive of all e different folders i have. msges i thot i will keep till e end..

e cow told me, "tat shows u need to change sth new ardy".. i guessed, dat includes a new bf.. hahaha!! wateva it is, thanks bitch!! for supporting me thruout e crisis.. i love u!!


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my dearest girls.. u know who u are.. i know i appeared oblivious to e fact dat u girls are always ard for me.. im utterly sorry for neglecting u girls.. i know deep down dat no matter wat i do.. u girls will support me too. and i guessed, u girls understand too..

hence, let me say tis here.. "im sorry" and "thanks!!"

friday, we'll be there!! (e place we have been saying we wanna go since.. duno how many donkey yrs back..)

min and hj, here i am to wish u two, Happy 4th Birthday~!~! may love be all ard u two.. =)


p/s: it's getting too long.. it's time to stop. hahaa..

Freaky4

i really take my hats off u..
HYNA YEO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I dreamt a silly dream yesterday..

hahaha. really silly.

i dreamt..
my bro and gf getting rom today.

i took a cab to his place while waiting for my bro's turn to get rom.
at his place.. i saw his bro and sis in law.. thou dat place was a lil weird. it doesnt seems like his place. but it's his place.

den.. he told me they are shifting place.
haha. it's funny. and it's time i go back to e rom place.

we held hands when he sent me to take a cab.. and everything seems fine.. thou it was after yestd..

in actual fact..
e last two person i saw from e KOh's family other den himself, was his bro and sis in law. and when i left his place dat nite.. i took a cab too..

it's e first time im experiencing such an unlogical dream. or issit telling me something? hahaha.
she said.. perhaps e day my bro get rom will be e day everything seems fine..
but nope.
i know im thinking of him.. way too much.

i told him.. i never put u on my top priority. u're always below my family and my animals..
cos he's already deep in my heart.

my heart tells me.. yes, i do.
my mind tells me.. no, u shldn't.
she told me.. true happiness can only be attain when u follow ur heart. and e mind jus doesnt work rite for e heart..
she told me.. in true love, e mind and e heart shld feel e same..

he thot it was something else.
no. i told him. but if he felt betta dat way, den go ahead.

i didnt regret my decision 3 yrs back..
it had been 3 yrs down e road, and i hope u wont regret ur decision either.

u wanted to hold on..
but u decided to let go..
it's all for me.
u insisted on dat decision.
u're not willing to gimme more time.
it's all for me.

i felt rotten. i felt lousy. im utterly broken. and it hurts badly.

Ah La Wang Zhi
&
San Ba Gong Zhu

26th March 2003 ~~~ 19th April 2006

may US rest in peace.

one day.

im given a day to make up my mind..
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one day..
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to decide the 3yrs......
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how could it be possible??

Contradictory...

talked to him for 2 hrs? haha. e feeling wasnt bad. found myself thinking of something which i dunno if dats really wat i wanted. at e thot of dat, makes me feel like crying. i really dunno.. thou i might already have an answer, i still felt lost. aHa! and here comes e word, L.O.S.T.

some are very curious, or shld i say, they are concerned + worried. yesh. i have lotsa frens who are very true to me..
from my stupidiest and numbess animals.. e Panda PunK a.k.a bossJJ.. e piGGy taY a.k.a feipo JieJie.. e irritating HynA yeO a.k.a motorbike GorGor.. e chinese-look-like-malay BirDy LeoW a.k.a tiong GorGor.. e forever-not-with-us CoW EnG a.k.a e poor huangNA.. e feather-no-more ChiCken gwEE a.k.a derickeN...........!

to my dearest girls.. my baby, my PDA and aminah..

only one know e exact meaning. yesh u pig!

im lost. in happiness. sounds contradictory. in fact, it is.
a few interpretation can be derived.

and e correct one?
im misplaced in a situation. im blessed in another.

so, if u were me.. how would u feel? haha. contradict. yeah, i told u. (~_^)

was msn-ing with an animal. and i jus came to realise.. i hate e phrase.. "yeah, dats life.." haha. it sounds so helpless. so pathetic. hmmm...

p/s: hope i answer all ur qns.

animals A.D.D.I.C.T

im an animal lover.