Monday, December 26, 2011

26♥11♥2011


It happened. Birdy went on his knee and asked me to marry him and I said, "Oorh."

Everyone asked me, "How do u feel?" and my answer to everyone, "Littat lor.."

Ok, I would be lying if I say I'm not happy. But I wasn't extremely happy either. I would say, the feeling is simply amazing that when u looked down and u suddenly see a diamond ring on ur finger. Ya. That's how I'm feeling. I always tell him, "Marrying U is a sooner or later thingy. The Proposal is just a formality and something U have to go thru.." I believes he felt the same and am glad at least he feels the need to make it official. Haha! What's more when the Birdog's nest will be ready in less than a year's time? I'd made my decision near to 3 years back, isn't it so?

Yup, I have to say this is one of the biggest and most successful surprise he ever managed to sprung on me. Perhaps due to work and being so confident in believing that he'll never propose on my birthday, allowed him to catch me off guard totally, without leaking a single clue. Then again, it wasn't the happiest due to the minor details behind the scene which I really had to admit that were pretty disappointing. No doubt I appreciates the effort he'd put in, I know he could have done better. But of cos I also grew to accept the fact that, this is my imperfect boyfriend, or rather, my fiancé - the man whom I know I can trust my future and want to spend the rest of my life with.. Therefore, I shall let this disappointment be something I'll nag him with till our hair turns grey, and also as a reminder to ensure we plan our wedding day together in my near-to-perfection way.


A beautiful wedding day is the first step to a blissful marriage.

Monday, June 20, 2011

Simple life

我只是想要简简单单地过生活可是怎么现实生活中看起来却是那么复杂呢?



- Loves, h.s.f

Tuesday, June 07, 2011

The FINAL Decision

After weeks of contemplation, whether a big organization is beneficial to me or a small and comfortable one.. After meeting two potential employers, balancing the pros and cons of both which apparently was so competitive.. After repeating the same old story to so many people, seeking for advices and suggestions.. And finally after that brain washing session, I've decided to stand by my belief in u.

I knew immediately I didn't make the wrong choice in discussing with him. Everyone find it weird that I'm telling my boss bout my intention to resign when I haven't even get a proper offer. I've always treated him as a mentor cum boss and have always been frank with him. If not for the sudden invitation to the interview, I would have even ask for an increment already. And if not for there's this opening in this German company, I wouldn't even have the thought of leaving and subsequently, the strong urge of fighting for my own rights. I seriously think I've been under-utilized (and of cos that includes under-paid!!) for the past one year in UnUsUaL. Haha!

A change is exactly what I needed. Let's hope this decision will be the positive and favorable one.. And don't worry, I'll not disappoint u! I've accepted ur challenge and I'll show it to ur partners that u made the right choice. Little did I expect that u had been "thinking hard" on how to talk to me on ur way back from the Shenzhen trip.. And the totally lost for words was when fatboss suddenly apologized to me! WTF.

Well, having said all, I better not be too overjoyed with what was being promised. Afterall empty promises was what I've gotten for the past two years.. Shall wait till all plans being finalized and materialized before I can scream "Congratulations!!!" (to myself..) Haha.

Everything isn't just for u, but I really think I ought to work harder before it's time I settle down and build my own family.. Dearest friends whom have been hoping for me to leave this company (cos they felt I've been ill-treated!!), were still happy ultimately as that goes to mean they'll be entitled to more free or discounted concerts!!!





















Till then, I'll see more of u, Alpha Building!





- Loves, h.s.f

Friday, June 03, 2011

Imperfectly perfect dream.

昨晚无缘无故地梦见你。



- Loves, h.s.f

Saturday, March 26, 2011

生日快乐

当我把你的名字写出来的时候,那三个字好不眼熟。。看来时间真的把一切都冲淡了。可是看回那张卡片同样地让我掉了许多眼泪。

今天是你的生日,我没有忘记而是选择了不去记。想了很久,觉得既然你这样对待,我或许就该尊重。你的突然出现,改变和消失实在让我无法解释。。你所做的一切与你一年前所告诉我的完全不符合,我也完全不能够理解。。或许一点也不重要可是对我而言将会永远是个谜底。那首歌在我心里还是一根刺,隐隐作痛。。没错,我还念着你。别问我为什么,因为我也无法回答。

Thursday, February 24, 2011

xxxxxx added you on MSN

今天回到办公室开起了 MSN 看见了一个很收悉的 email 。。
应该是你吧?
你却还是选择不理我。。
我完全不明白你在想什么。。
好痛苦哦。。

Saturday, February 19, 2011

Ashlie is now friends with .....

我相信你找了很久吧?
可是花了那么多心思来找我,为什么找到了却又选择躲起来呢?

Saturday, January 08, 2011

Reflections & Resolutions

Reading back the first entry of Twenty Eleven, I realised my life was revolving only around work and birthdates that I probably wont forget for the rest of my life. Was my life really that sad or have I simply forgotten bout all the other happenings in Twenty Ten?

I've more or less decided. Just give me another three weeks to finalize that decision. Hopefully IPTO will get back to me with good news by then too!

As I was surfing facebook earlier, I felt really sad to see what the kids wrote. Bcos of the broken marriages, they are the ones suffering. How can I instill the correct values into them and have them understand the importance of kinship? I seriously hope you parents are able to better carry out your responsibility. Sad to say, but yes, all of you are indeed failures. I don't know if it will be helpful but I think I really have to start. And if only I'm capable and situation still remains, I'll do that.

On a happier note, I began to think that my-long-lost-friend is "coming back". I know that I may not have been the most understanding friend during that period of time, I probably could have done more for you.. For these, I'm really sorry to you, you and you. Nevertheless, it's something to call for celebration with you walking out of the darkness thou I knew it's never gonna be the same again. There are still alot of question marks of cos but I guess it doesn't matter anymore.

It's a brand new year, everything should start afresh. As mentioned in the previous post, I felt I'm having some kinda problem I couldn't explain. Now I guess the culprit is "Comfort Zone". I've been too slack and rotten I must admit. I stopped doing alot of things and live in a world of mine, allowing time to slip pass just like that. This is bad. Real bad.

Resolution: the act of resolving or determining upon an action or course of action, method, procedure, etc.
(Source: dictionary.com)

Resolution: a target you set at the beginning of a brand new year only to realize it will never be fulfilled at the end of it.
(Source: thebirdogdotcom)

Despite the fact that I never believe in New Year Resolution, I've a list of things which I'd told myself that I would want to start doing again. And these include, (1) finish the few books which had been lying on the little table for the longest time. (2) quit the few bad habits (ignore the details). (3) my weekly jogging routine should really start. (4) sleeping earlier and waking up earlier for work. Age is catching up and I really have to take care of my body before it's too late. (5) the major saving plan - I know this is totally redundant cos it's a mission impossible. But wells, I have to put this in for myself to feel better and consoled in the beginning of the year.

Birdog's nest seems likely to be ready by first quarter of 2012. I don't know if this should be consider a good or bad news.




Tuesday, January 04, 2011

First Post in Twenty Eleven..

And hopefully its not gonna be the only post. Haha. I have no idea why, as much as I still wanted to blog, I cant find the zest in doing so anymore. I guess there is very serious problem within myself which till date I have yet to figure it out. In fact, I realised I have difficulties recalling what had happened in Twenty Ten - a disastrous year to alot of my friends..

(actually I have alot to say..) Lets start this off by looking back at the whole year in a monthly manner.

January 2010.
Blank.
AMIT concert.
I betrayed the person who loves me unconditionally.

February 2010.
My first trip to Hong Kong.
We celebrated JJ and Paul's 25th at St James.
Valentine's Day falls on CNY Day 1.

March 2010.
Blank.
Something so unexpected happened which I didnt know how to handle.
We celebrated Birdy's 25th, flying kite in Woodlands.
I dont even remember if I bought him any present.

April 2010.
Bro's 30th.
And dearHyna lost my dearSamsungLove. My trueLove.
Blank.

May 2010.
Zanver's 5th.
Birdog's 4th, we went Taiwan with Mamargaret, Popo, Erge and Angie. Dage and Dasao were supposed to come too but Lovelle was already an 8 months old fetus then.
And did we celebrate xiong's 25th at Zouk - when the orange light flash?
Blank.

June 2010.
The worse month of the year.
Busy at work - 2nd instalment of SLV.
DuaBuiYi was admitted to hospital and diagnosed with some weird illness.
dearHyna met with a terrible accident.
We neglected Piggy & Dericken's birthday - something I didnt even realise until she pointed it out to me.
Lovely Lovelle was brought to world.
I heard some nasty words bout myself at work which really affected me. But it doesnt seem so bad anymore after that little act.

July 2010.
It was still a busy month I supposed.
Blank. Blank.

August 2010.
Work is never-ending and it only gets more!
I met with an accident and god bless only the car was injured. This became a topic for fatBoss everywhere he goes.
NDP & YOG ended. Everything was near to perfect. Busy but happy as I learned alot..

September 2010.
Blank.

October 2010.
We celebrated Hyna's 25th at his void deck BBQ-ing.
We had a Company chalet at Changi.
Blank.
Mamargaret's 50th.

November 2010.
Blank.
Celebrated Baby's 25th. - Did we actually celebrate Ailing's and mine?
We had a family chalet at Changi to celebrate the November's babies - XiaoYi, Angie, HUpapa and myself.
We had a Animals chalet at Pasir Ris to celebrate my 25th.

December 2010.
We created a surprise with Xiongo for Isadora at her doorstep.
We celebrated Derick & Diana's 2nd Anniversary.
We celebrated Koala's 25th at Coca Restaurant at Takashimaya. The day when some misunderstanding arises between myself and Paul. I was so upset and this was so unexpected of Paul. - Something till date I still find it unfair to myself.
We celebrated Christmas.
Jayen's 7th.
We countdown to Twenty Eleven.
We went to 13 cells.

Guess these are the list of stuffs that created some memories within me. Im pretty sure there are alot more but sadly memory is failing me.

Today. 4 Jan 2011. Birdog's 56th monniversary.

Now. 0124hrs. It's time to sleep and I shall continue the story soon. (I still have alot to say..)

Loves,
hsf