always being mistaken for..

i was just trying to show some concern for a friend. What did i get in return? Being mistaken for. That has always been the case. (and i supposed that's how the bond got even stronger?) Everyone learn from the mistakes they made.. i never seems to. i could jolly well live in my own world and not be bothered by the rest.. Not like i've got not enough problems to worry bout for myself. But that's so not me. And that's the reason why i always ended up hurt.

Were u being too demanding or am i the naive and insensitive one? U could just tell me that u didnt want to talk bout it, but u didnt and yet u expect me to shut it up. When i thot i was being encouraging, yet all i've said, to u, meant nothing but rubbish. And my good intention is being rejected. Then out of nowhere, came the bomb which jolted me awake.

U knew that i was never good with words. But did u see that i've given u my best already? it's ok if u didnt but it'll be really appreciative if u could see from my point of view and trust me that i wasnt trying to rub into ur wounds. Presumably, it's the wrong timing again. But i hope that's what others would also have gotten from u if it wasnt me. i hope i havent been taken for granted. i remember u once said this..
"do u ever know that, ur actions are always sweeter than ur words..?"
Then, i understooded. Now, i got a better picture.

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i urged u to go ahead and do ur best for the thing u wanted to give up. U retaliated with,
"u think easy?"
Of cos i know it's not! If it is, i would be there achieving mine already!

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i told u it wont hurt to try. U retaliated with,
"so u think when u tried and failed, it doesnt hurt?"
That's not my point! Disappointment, sure there will be. But i just didnt want u to live with regrets at the end of the day!

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i asked u to obtain it and do ur family proud. i'll be proud of u too! U retaliated with,
"so u think i dont wanna do my family proud?"
i'll never mean that! i just wanted to boost ur morale and let u know that u aint any mediocre people. But i later realised, at that point of time, u felt pressured instead.

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When u finally said u didnt want to think so much, i concluded that i should have leave u alone.
But do u know what it takes to feel like JUNK? That's when u said, "u're finally making sense.."

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p/s: i love u.